I told a friend i'd post about Ego and some of the non-freudian things that make it such an interesting topic, but i'm feeling a little modest today, so i'll skip it...
LOST AND FOUND
I LOST...
My freaking ear piece AGAIN!!! I am considering having it either surgically molded to my face, or maybe i'll buy one of those Hannibal Lector style masks so that i don't misplace it. Eh, for $20 a shot, i guess i'll just stick with the earpiece...but seriously, someone is making a killing off the the earpieces that i lose...that's TWO and counting...not many, but if a guy can break into my car and cause $3k in damages just to steal a $100 stereo (long story from a long time ago), someone will spend the time to ebay a gunky, waxy, used earpiece for $10...and worse...someone else will buy it...but i digress...what's new?
Weight! Yay for me. But only like a few pounds...and by the time i fully clothe myself, it's all back. I don't know how people stay a certain weight...seriously, my weight fluctuates on a daily basis...is this just the case for guys? Clothing not included, my weight can change up to 5 pounds in a week...but overall stays the same...kind of frustrating when i feel like a blimp, only to have my weight be the same at the end of the week as i started the week...weird.
A lot of boxes. Yay for me again. Finally shaving down all my crap to a manageable load of junk. I seriously hope i don't need some of that stuff i threw away...i am just waiting for the IRS to audit me for the tax year 1998...i know they can only go back 7 years, but seriously, they're the government, they do whatever the heck they want...and get away with it...i.e. the tax scam they call the 401(k)/403(b)...but again...i digress.
I FOUND...
An old commission check...sweet...only about $50 bucks...but then again, it will pay for my new ear piece. Actually, i found TWO old commission checks...the but other one is for $5.88...just enough to pay for the gas to go to the bank to deposit it.
That being a leader of an organization is more about putting up with people's shit than it is about leading...or is that just the way my ship of manure functions?
That the food at Krung Thai is just as good as it was when i used to eat it a long time ago...it's nice to know some things haven't changed!
That i do not have a trash can in my room. Are you telling me it's taken almost a month for me to figure this out? I am either retarded, or very self sustaining...where is all my trash going? I'm not sure, but if i could find it, i'm sure i'd find my earpiece...
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
It's all in the mind...
Other's Minds
I had a traing associate complain to me that she was upset because a client of hers hadn't provided us a piece of information, and that it was preventing her from getting paid. I wanted to tell her that it wasn't the client that prevented her from getting paid, but rather it was her not going to work that was preventing her from getting paid...i wish people would stop pointing the finger at other people. Then she said that she'd be more motivated to work when she got the check under her belt (she is new and it would be her first check). I wanted to tell her that she would be more motivated to work if she just shut the cake-hole and went to work...but that wouldn't be nice...it would be true, but it wouldn't be nice.
I Hate Tax Time
Between now and the 15th of april...ugh...i have more receipts than toilet paper in my place right now...and i just bought a costco size toilet paper container...so that's a lot of paper no matter how you slice it...or unroll it. Speaking of taxes, i totally forgot to give someone a book i told them i'd give them called "Tax Free Retirement." If she is reading this, first, she should be working :-P, but second, i promise to get you the book when i get back from Hawaii...along with the postcard, flower lei, and coconut...not. In the meanwhile, there's still the movie "300" as well as "The Secret" to watch. For anyone that's confused about what i'm talking about, give it a try...read the book and watch the two movies...then you will be even more confused...but there is a link between the three...good luck in finding it.
I Can See Clearly Now The Rain Is Gone
I can also play that song on my ukulele...yay for me. Finally the weather is lightening up. A bad case of strep throat going around these days for some reason...i have managed to escape it, and once i'm in hawaii (if i can make it there safely), that becomes california's problem, not mine =). Speaking of hawaii, does anyone need anything? Not that any request placed with me will be fulfilled, but blogging by yourself is sometimes like talking to the wall...which is good sometimes, but can get a bit dry (no pun inteded, but you probably didn't get it anyway...you know...dry wall...yeah, not that funny O_o).
Wow...the day has seriously turned into a nice day...maybe i'll hit the driving range (again no pun intended on a very dry joke)...always a good way to relax, refocus, and reflect...ahh...weekend is almost here...off i go to sprint across the finish line instead of limping across it =)
Have a great weekend and i'll see you in hawaii...or should i say "YOU'LL see ME in hawaii" =)
ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHA!
I had a traing associate complain to me that she was upset because a client of hers hadn't provided us a piece of information, and that it was preventing her from getting paid. I wanted to tell her that it wasn't the client that prevented her from getting paid, but rather it was her not going to work that was preventing her from getting paid...i wish people would stop pointing the finger at other people. Then she said that she'd be more motivated to work when she got the check under her belt (she is new and it would be her first check). I wanted to tell her that she would be more motivated to work if she just shut the cake-hole and went to work...but that wouldn't be nice...it would be true, but it wouldn't be nice.
I Hate Tax Time
Between now and the 15th of april...ugh...i have more receipts than toilet paper in my place right now...and i just bought a costco size toilet paper container...so that's a lot of paper no matter how you slice it...or unroll it. Speaking of taxes, i totally forgot to give someone a book i told them i'd give them called "Tax Free Retirement." If she is reading this, first, she should be working :-P, but second, i promise to get you the book when i get back from Hawaii...along with the postcard, flower lei, and coconut...not. In the meanwhile, there's still the movie "300" as well as "The Secret" to watch. For anyone that's confused about what i'm talking about, give it a try...read the book and watch the two movies...then you will be even more confused...but there is a link between the three...good luck in finding it.
I Can See Clearly Now The Rain Is Gone
I can also play that song on my ukulele...yay for me. Finally the weather is lightening up. A bad case of strep throat going around these days for some reason...i have managed to escape it, and once i'm in hawaii (if i can make it there safely), that becomes california's problem, not mine =). Speaking of hawaii, does anyone need anything? Not that any request placed with me will be fulfilled, but blogging by yourself is sometimes like talking to the wall...which is good sometimes, but can get a bit dry (no pun inteded, but you probably didn't get it anyway...you know...dry wall...yeah, not that funny O_o).
Wow...the day has seriously turned into a nice day...maybe i'll hit the driving range (again no pun intended on a very dry joke)...always a good way to relax, refocus, and reflect...ahh...weekend is almost here...off i go to sprint across the finish line instead of limping across it =)
Have a great weekend and i'll see you in hawaii...or should i say "YOU'LL see ME in hawaii" =)
ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHA!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
My Apologies...
Yes...I admit that my last couple of blogs have really sucked. That is about to change...and in light of that, this one might just suck a whole lot more, but i will try to avoid that situation...wish me luck for the sake of not wasting your time...and of course not wasting my time to write this thing...
I cringe when clients tell me they are conservative, and that because of that, they choose to do nothing to change their already disasterous financial situation. There is a big difference between conservative and "i am going to screw myself over by not saving money." The latter of the two is the position most people take because they treat themselves and their future too lightly...after which they come back in a couple of years and request us to do the impossible. I am an educator, not a magician...when you see me pull a rabbit out of my hat, then you can ask me to do more complicated tricks like doing what we could barely do in five years, now doing it in two.
I feel like the author from Freakonomics. How does the missing cover on the trash bin relate to potentially increasing my ability to save the environment? I have given up on my box count in my room because, well, there just isn't enough room for all my crap. As a matter of fact, i have increased the number of boxes in my room by one so that i have one to throw stuff away in. The storms of the past couple of days have prevented me from throwing more junk away because the cap on the trash bin is missing and i don't want to throw all my junk paper into the trash without a cover...that would be a serious mess...but i guess that's how recycled paper mills run and i'd only be doing them a favor by speeding up the process, right?
I am heading to Hawaii in 4 days. Yes, i am getting the HECK out of California for a couple of weeks. Before you start thinking that i'm lucky to be in Hawaii for two weeks, let me tell you that HECK YES i'm lucky to be going to Hawaii. Our chairman will be in Hawaii for a couple of days and hopefully with his guidance and my boot up the team's rear end, we will make something happen there besides trade winds and sunny days...that wind and sun goes on when i'm not there...i don't need to waste my time to be there just for that...
One last thought...Where the heck did the word "dumbfounded" come from?
I cringe when clients tell me they are conservative, and that because of that, they choose to do nothing to change their already disasterous financial situation. There is a big difference between conservative and "i am going to screw myself over by not saving money." The latter of the two is the position most people take because they treat themselves and their future too lightly...after which they come back in a couple of years and request us to do the impossible. I am an educator, not a magician...when you see me pull a rabbit out of my hat, then you can ask me to do more complicated tricks like doing what we could barely do in five years, now doing it in two.
I feel like the author from Freakonomics. How does the missing cover on the trash bin relate to potentially increasing my ability to save the environment? I have given up on my box count in my room because, well, there just isn't enough room for all my crap. As a matter of fact, i have increased the number of boxes in my room by one so that i have one to throw stuff away in. The storms of the past couple of days have prevented me from throwing more junk away because the cap on the trash bin is missing and i don't want to throw all my junk paper into the trash without a cover...that would be a serious mess...but i guess that's how recycled paper mills run and i'd only be doing them a favor by speeding up the process, right?
I am heading to Hawaii in 4 days. Yes, i am getting the HECK out of California for a couple of weeks. Before you start thinking that i'm lucky to be in Hawaii for two weeks, let me tell you that HECK YES i'm lucky to be going to Hawaii. Our chairman will be in Hawaii for a couple of days and hopefully with his guidance and my boot up the team's rear end, we will make something happen there besides trade winds and sunny days...that wind and sun goes on when i'm not there...i don't need to waste my time to be there just for that...
One last thought...Where the heck did the word "dumbfounded" come from?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I Miss...
...Pho...haven't eaten that stuff in over a month...i think i'm going through withdrawals...to the point that i am not even sure how to spell withdrawals anymore...
...soccer during the week...my lazy ass is too...well...lazy to get up and run, so i just do some weird exercises called "man makers" instead...what the hell is a man maker and if i'm 33 and still not a man, well, screw it...
...having more space to store all my junk...but i now know that i need to work harder towards earning enough money to buy a house to store all my shit...
...the expectation of a return call...now all i can do is hope a call is returned...the giddy feeling is cool, but waiting for a call is not.
...my piano...call me weak sauce, but having that damn thing would sure make all my spare time pass a hell of a lot faster...even though i'd drive my housemates nuts...but heck, isn't that why i pay rent to them?
...not blogging because i had actions to do instead of posts to postulate on...
...soccer during the week...my lazy ass is too...well...lazy to get up and run, so i just do some weird exercises called "man makers" instead...what the hell is a man maker and if i'm 33 and still not a man, well, screw it...
...having more space to store all my junk...but i now know that i need to work harder towards earning enough money to buy a house to store all my shit...
...the expectation of a return call...now all i can do is hope a call is returned...the giddy feeling is cool, but waiting for a call is not.
...my piano...call me weak sauce, but having that damn thing would sure make all my spare time pass a hell of a lot faster...even though i'd drive my housemates nuts...but heck, isn't that why i pay rent to them?
...not blogging because i had actions to do instead of posts to postulate on...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Crappy Night..
So now i'm up to 9 boxes...
I saved the whole day to work and train one associate and all his appts cancelled yesterday so i ended up with squat...
Healing dinner turned into a big fight...should i have expected less?
No BBQ to eat last nite as planned...
Got home late, had to wake up early...
BUT...
Now I have dishes to eat on...
The rest of the team is moving...and trips to L.A. and Hawaii this month will stir the pot up a bit
One door closes another one opens...exciting!
Ended up eating homemade chili...even better than BBQ...yum!
Waking up early isn't so bad, as long as you have something in your life to wake up to (a great person, a great career, a hope, a dream, whatever...).
...and life goes on...lets make it a good one =)
I saved the whole day to work and train one associate and all his appts cancelled yesterday so i ended up with squat...
Healing dinner turned into a big fight...should i have expected less?
No BBQ to eat last nite as planned...
Got home late, had to wake up early...
BUT...
Now I have dishes to eat on...
The rest of the team is moving...and trips to L.A. and Hawaii this month will stir the pot up a bit
One door closes another one opens...exciting!
Ended up eating homemade chili...even better than BBQ...yum!
Waking up early isn't so bad, as long as you have something in your life to wake up to (a great person, a great career, a hope, a dream, whatever...).
...and life goes on...lets make it a good one =)
Saturday, January 9, 2010
The Countdown...
No, this is not a blog about the end of the world at the conclusion of the Mayan calendar, nor is it about the ever so vague predictions of Nostradamus, nor a prediction based upon the Chinese astrological calendar that predicted 2008, the year of the Golden Pig, would be one of the most financially prosperous in recent and distant memory...a year which we all wish we could forget for any of a zillion financial reasons/predicaments/situations/disasters.
This is about something much more pertinent and amazing. It is the countdown to me unpacking all my junk in my new place. I started with probably just over 15 boxes, of which i have managed to find discreet places for them or managed to unpack them completely...yay for me. The day started with the count at 8 boxes. After consolidating more work papers, somehow managing to throw an entire box of papers away, and re-arranging all my video game junk (which i consolidated into another box with other technology stuff), i am down to 5 freaking boxes. I also managed to consolidate a set of 6 plastic drawers into one small plastic mesh box, which i don't count, but what i consider a moral victory as well.
Now comes the hard part...you can only fold a piece of paper in half so many times, and i am reaching the manageable limit of consolidation before i need to start changing my moral convictions and prioities to find more crap to throw away. So what should i throw away? I have of course some stuff i can't throw away for legal reasons. But i also have stuff that is quite subjective...like old programs and stuff from graduations (undergrad and graduate), musicals i have attended, golf tournaments i have be to, random pictures that have no current pertinence, old files that may or may not become significant (most likely not), and of course, for anyone that knows me, my memorabilia stuff that i have managed to collect over time...including autographed cards, jersey cards (where there is a swatch of the actual player's jersey attached to the card), comics, magazines, bobble heads, and other things that any sensible woman would throw away in a heartbeat. But i am not sensible, and i am not a woman, so it makes things more complicated. What to throw out, what to save...you'd think that after leaving a 4 year relationship these kinds of decisions would be pretty simple to make in comparison, but then for some reason, they are not.
Obviously this post is going nowhere as of this point, but hang in there, because there is a point, and it's started getting me to think about what is really important. For example, i saved all the stuff i spend money on. If i got it for free, perhaps i didn't think so much of it...not that i threw it away, cause it may have fallen in one of the following categories, but there is always more significance to things that we work to obtain.
I have saved programs and small trinkets from events that i have attended that i can remember or have memories for. My ex "encouraged" me to throw away all the letters and such from past relationships while we were together. I am not sure if i am upset at this point, but life is about memories and having those memories discarded makes me wonder if i should have...not that i had even ever gone back to read them in the last 5-10 years, but, well, i just wonder if they are things that should just that easily discarded.
I saved all my video game systems that i have accumulated since moving to california. I got rid of my PS because i can use the games on my PS2...which i still have along with my Nintendo 64...which is a total piece of junk, but then i bought it and a few games, so my cheap-ass self won't let me throw it away yet...yet...but the day is coming...this is the next likely thing to go
I saved all the letters from family that i have received over the last 15 years living in California. Even little letters and scraps of paper where my family sent me some money or something and included a note with it. Call me crazy, but i will never throw those away. I'm not sure why i have such a strong conviction to keep them, but i'm sure in the future (especially the distant future) i will not regret saving these things.
I saved all the pictures that i have taken, and have even taken certain digital pictures (not nearly as many pictures that i have on digital media) and transferred them to actual albums that i can pull out at any time and look at. Seriously, having pictures on DVD isn't worth crap because how often do we really turn on the computer, find the DVD, load it up in the computer, and scroll through old photos? I don't think anything will ever replace an album that you can pick up and relive the past...even for just a few minutes.
In the end, to conclude, i still have 5 boxes of stuff that i'm trying to downsize...but maybe 5 boxes of stuff is okay for me to keep...any thoughts?
This is about something much more pertinent and amazing. It is the countdown to me unpacking all my junk in my new place. I started with probably just over 15 boxes, of which i have managed to find discreet places for them or managed to unpack them completely...yay for me. The day started with the count at 8 boxes. After consolidating more work papers, somehow managing to throw an entire box of papers away, and re-arranging all my video game junk (which i consolidated into another box with other technology stuff), i am down to 5 freaking boxes. I also managed to consolidate a set of 6 plastic drawers into one small plastic mesh box, which i don't count, but what i consider a moral victory as well.
Now comes the hard part...you can only fold a piece of paper in half so many times, and i am reaching the manageable limit of consolidation before i need to start changing my moral convictions and prioities to find more crap to throw away. So what should i throw away? I have of course some stuff i can't throw away for legal reasons. But i also have stuff that is quite subjective...like old programs and stuff from graduations (undergrad and graduate), musicals i have attended, golf tournaments i have be to, random pictures that have no current pertinence, old files that may or may not become significant (most likely not), and of course, for anyone that knows me, my memorabilia stuff that i have managed to collect over time...including autographed cards, jersey cards (where there is a swatch of the actual player's jersey attached to the card), comics, magazines, bobble heads, and other things that any sensible woman would throw away in a heartbeat. But i am not sensible, and i am not a woman, so it makes things more complicated. What to throw out, what to save...you'd think that after leaving a 4 year relationship these kinds of decisions would be pretty simple to make in comparison, but then for some reason, they are not.
Obviously this post is going nowhere as of this point, but hang in there, because there is a point, and it's started getting me to think about what is really important. For example, i saved all the stuff i spend money on. If i got it for free, perhaps i didn't think so much of it...not that i threw it away, cause it may have fallen in one of the following categories, but there is always more significance to things that we work to obtain.
I have saved programs and small trinkets from events that i have attended that i can remember or have memories for. My ex "encouraged" me to throw away all the letters and such from past relationships while we were together. I am not sure if i am upset at this point, but life is about memories and having those memories discarded makes me wonder if i should have...not that i had even ever gone back to read them in the last 5-10 years, but, well, i just wonder if they are things that should just that easily discarded.
I saved all my video game systems that i have accumulated since moving to california. I got rid of my PS because i can use the games on my PS2...which i still have along with my Nintendo 64...which is a total piece of junk, but then i bought it and a few games, so my cheap-ass self won't let me throw it away yet...yet...but the day is coming...this is the next likely thing to go
I saved all the letters from family that i have received over the last 15 years living in California. Even little letters and scraps of paper where my family sent me some money or something and included a note with it. Call me crazy, but i will never throw those away. I'm not sure why i have such a strong conviction to keep them, but i'm sure in the future (especially the distant future) i will not regret saving these things.
I saved all the pictures that i have taken, and have even taken certain digital pictures (not nearly as many pictures that i have on digital media) and transferred them to actual albums that i can pull out at any time and look at. Seriously, having pictures on DVD isn't worth crap because how often do we really turn on the computer, find the DVD, load it up in the computer, and scroll through old photos? I don't think anything will ever replace an album that you can pick up and relive the past...even for just a few minutes.
In the end, to conclude, i still have 5 boxes of stuff that i'm trying to downsize...but maybe 5 boxes of stuff is okay for me to keep...any thoughts?
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I've realized in the last day or two that on a purely selfish level, life isn't about GETTING what you want...it's about ENDING UP with what you want. I've been getting everything I've wanted through life, yet still find dissatisfaction. On my defense, i don't get what i want because i was born with a silver spoon or because i just complain enough that people get sick of me and accommodate me. Actually, quite the contrary. People say i am fortunate or what not, but i don't see people doing much to get anywhere, so it doesn't surprise me that if i come a little earlier, stay a little later, work a little harder, and (figuratively) bleed a little more, that i should come out ahead. But over time, i still find myself relatively dissatisfied...what a paralyzing dilemma!
Something tells me I'm not going to figure this problem out in the scope of this blog entry, but sometimes i need to put things on paper to see what i'm thinking...and this one is quite a doozy. The other day i was frustrated because i couldn't find constructible cubes anywhere...i wish i hadn't found them...then i'd be trying to figure out where to get those instead of pondering my past, present, and future.
The funny thing is that there are so many easy solutions.
1) Take the stress out of business by going back to a job. Yeah, right. It took me 10 years to figure out that everything we do to prepare for our lives after 21 is useless because we're not in a position to determine our future beyond that. You can get good grades, whatever, but once you hit the corporate world, it's a doomed cycle. If you make too little, you are not worthy of much consideration and are expendable (money follows value...if you don't make much, you're just not that valuable in the eyes of our employers). If you make too much, they can always replace you with two people working at half the salary...how long can you work harder and smarter than two people? When you're time comes to put your head on the chopping block (i.e. restructuring, downsizing), just pray you're not 50, with 3 kids in college, a mortgage, credit card debt, and parents to care for...firing is the new retiring if you haven't heard.
2) Move back to Hawaii and slip into oblivion. Very tempting...take the red pill and go back to where I came from. In time, living back in hawaii, i'll probably forget everything about the cruel world. I can just live back in hawaii with all the rest of my struggling family and friends and struggle with them...but at least we'd have each other, right?
Shit, if those are the only two easy options, i'm seriously up a creek...hmm...
In the end, one thing always comes to mind...a quote I saw in my favorite book...and i'll end this blog with that proverb:
Something tells me I'm not going to figure this problem out in the scope of this blog entry, but sometimes i need to put things on paper to see what i'm thinking...and this one is quite a doozy. The other day i was frustrated because i couldn't find constructible cubes anywhere...i wish i hadn't found them...then i'd be trying to figure out where to get those instead of pondering my past, present, and future.
The funny thing is that there are so many easy solutions.
1) Take the stress out of business by going back to a job. Yeah, right. It took me 10 years to figure out that everything we do to prepare for our lives after 21 is useless because we're not in a position to determine our future beyond that. You can get good grades, whatever, but once you hit the corporate world, it's a doomed cycle. If you make too little, you are not worthy of much consideration and are expendable (money follows value...if you don't make much, you're just not that valuable in the eyes of our employers). If you make too much, they can always replace you with two people working at half the salary...how long can you work harder and smarter than two people? When you're time comes to put your head on the chopping block (i.e. restructuring, downsizing), just pray you're not 50, with 3 kids in college, a mortgage, credit card debt, and parents to care for...firing is the new retiring if you haven't heard.
2) Move back to Hawaii and slip into oblivion. Very tempting...take the red pill and go back to where I came from. In time, living back in hawaii, i'll probably forget everything about the cruel world. I can just live back in hawaii with all the rest of my struggling family and friends and struggle with them...but at least we'd have each other, right?
Shit, if those are the only two easy options, i'm seriously up a creek...hmm...
In the end, one thing always comes to mind...a quote I saw in my favorite book...and i'll end this blog with that proverb:
YOU'D BETTER BE RUNNING
Every morning,
a gazelle wakes up.
It knows it must run faster
than the fastest lion
or it will be killed.
Every morning,
a lion wakes up.
It knows it must outrun
the slowest gazelle
or it will starve to death.
It doesn't matter
whether you are
a lion or a gazelle:
When the sun comes up,
you'd better be running!
--African Proverb
So i guess after all the blabber, i've sort of answered my own question...for now. I just need to get up and run. It doesn't really matter, but i need to make sure i run...and run fast...i hope you're up and running as well!
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